This blog is defunct

I made a decision today. That is to let this blog 'pass away'. I'll keep this brief and precise:

-UTP line sucks, enough to kill any interest in blogging.

-Do I like to blog? The answer is perhaps yes, perhaps no, but I don't think I'm the kind who has any fixed dedication to it, and certainly not when I'm trapped in a hostel room with frequent zero connectivity.

-I don't really blog about a lot of 'really' personal stuff. If I'm not prepared to do so, I think blogging has lost a bit of it's meaning, which means I might as well not blog.

So, the bottomline? I will never say never to blogging one day again , but as of now, this blog will cease to be active. (even if I start again I'll do it through a spanking beautiful new blog design :P)

Ooops

Funny thing.

Yesterday a big group of relatives came to my grandparents home in Kuala Terengganu, where i celebrate CNY every year. They come every single CNY, which makes what I'm about to write look all the more stupid. But to be fair I don't go back KT often so I don't really keep up with others' status.

There was this girl who was older than me a few years and I noticed (vaguely) I had seen her before. She probably had come to visit during CNY for the past few years, though who she really was I had no clue. Perhaps, I thought, one of my cousins who I somehow wasn't particularly aware of. When they left, I asked my 'close' cousin, the one whom I knew much better.

Me: Eh, who was that?
Cousin X: You really dunno?
Me: One of auntie's daughters, isn't she? I mean, she's been here before sometimes, if I'm not mistaken...
Cousin X: Oh my goodness!!! She's the fiancee of one of your cousins!!!

(-.-)'

As a consolation, I'm so glad I didn't blurt out my stupidness in front of them, since they had already left when I knew the fact.

New Semester Update

Ok, new semester has started and this blog post is a little overdue. Ok, maybe more than a little. Thing is I don't feel the urge to blog after coming back from lectures. I hope this doesn't continue after CNY, since I'd like to at lest update it at least occasionally.

Ok enough with the crap. My first week was very interesting. First of all it was weird going back knowing I'll be back home one week later, so it kind of truly isn't the *real* beginning of the semester. But all the same, nice to see my friends after 1 month or so, though Metana doesn't feel the same without CK, haha. I have a new room in V6, Metana 01-01. I bitched a bit about my room issues before this, and I really did think I was going to move to V1. That is, until I found out that virtually all of my friends didn't want to move to V1 from Etana and decide to swap rooms with those in Metana. So off I went back to UTP one week earlier to register for my new room through the same way. I do like my new room though it has it's pros and cons. It's near to the washing machine, which is fantastic, and I like that my room is near the front door of the block since I can dry my clothes with my new thingy (dunno what to call it, hanging rack?) by just pushing it outside. Much, much better than stinking up my room and killing the free space like last semester.

The academic part for this week is a snooze. I don't remember me paying attention too much attention to the lectures. It's not really about the lecturers, and I can see that some of them are quite ok, but I'm just unable to be attentive because I've not shifted from my 'no studying' mode acquired in the sem break. Lectures have a way of making people tired, sad to say. No matter how the lecturers try to spice it up, make it interesting, speak loudly or even scream the end result is still the same: zzzzzz..... I want to buck this trend when I come back next week, because I don't hate listening to lectures. I truly don't. I just feel tired whenever I do. XP Maybe sleep earlier in the future? Hehe, fat chance. =.=

I had a lot of free time this week, courtesy of lack of tutorials and labs, which was a nice change, although it will only last one week. Spent most of the time either sleeping or loitering in other rooms, besides online-ing. Also spent quite a bit of time figuring out my timetable slots and also registration for tutorials. Sadly, my timetable arrangement was slightly different from what I had originally planned due to unavoidable circumstances, and now I'd say that when I come back from CNY my Mondays and Tuesdays will be a drag, with non-stop classes from morning to night. I went for an EDX interview for Thursday night, which I still can't believe since I hardly go for this kind of stuff in UTP. I like holding no posts or jobs whatsoever, but then again I don't want to be an unambitious slob forever, so I thought what the heck, might as well try it out (It's not like I'll definitely get it anyway).

So all in all nice week. Look forward to seeing CK, Jack and other friends who haven't been back yet plus futsal when I return from the CNY break, but yet dreading the return to busy days and crazy assignments. But for now I'll just wish everyone in advance...

HAPPY CNY!!!

I'm back... for one day.

It feels really weird typing this right now. I just reached V6, where it's almost empty silence and total darkness except for a few rooms with their light on. I don't know how I felt when I walked in the university, but it's almost as if I never left. The village still looks the same, in fact everything's the same, but I do feel some nostalgia seeing my old room at Etana being occupied by the new foundation students. It's almost hard to believe that just last month I was living there, playing games and studying for the exam.

The Metana hallway is really eerie. Maybe's it's just the lack of people and empty rooms with doors hanging wide open. I'm probably the only one awake in this entire block now. Got to sleep now, wake up early and get the registration issues cleared up in the morning.

Oh, and btw I'm typing this under an excruciatingly slow internet connection. Wonder why the connection still sucks, even when V6's half empty.

You know it's a bad day when...

... a news hits you hard that it leaves you dazed, confused and go WTH all at the same time.

So what is this 'news'? Well, V6 has three main blocks for the foundation students, Etana, Metana and Propana. For the next semester, the whole of Etana will have to move to V1, while the rest stay put. In other words, the male foundation students residences are being split, one group in V1 and another in V6. Well, me and a bunch of others like Leon, Han Shen and Timmy, will have to move to V1, since we're from the Etana block.

I wouldn't say that the fact that I have to move itself is making me upset, since I already expected to move. It's just the bloody circumstances under which it's happening. Realistically, this 'half-half' shift is going to create lots of problems for many people (example: do I need to trek across the campus in my stupid bicycle just to borrow some notes from a coursemate in Metana?). I'm sure the hostel management have their reasons but..... sigh. Anyway, I'm already resigned to it. What's done is done. No point complaining about it further.

2008: The Year That Was

2008 was a weird year. Not in a bad sense, definitely. But it really felt like I lived in two different dimensions this year, unlike earlier. I guess it's to be expected, since this was my first school-free year. I don't really remember the first seven years of my life, only from 8 onwards did I even vaguely 'felt' the years itself. Especially the years when I move, which are always a bit more nostalgic (Trivia 1: For those of you who may not know, I've moved several times, and stayed in 4 different towns).

Anyway, I think what made my 2008 experience so unique and different was the fact that it honestly felt like 2 mini years compressed into one. What I went through in the first half of 2008 felt like 2008 PART 1, while my life in university felt like 2008 PART 2.

PART 1:
I came into 2008 feeling ultra un-jubilant, since the euphoria of SPM being over had weared off, and I was so caught up with a lot of mundane stuff related to me moving to Melaka (Trivia 2: I moved on the 27th of December, 2007 from Muar to Melaka), not to mention the fact that I was moving to a new place where I could count the number of friends I knew with one hand (ok, maybe two, but you get my point). A series of very, very unspectacular events followed, like my driving lessons which were... the less said the better. The first time I drove on the road was not exactly *cough* a fond moment. I also got (more like given) a part time job which... also the less said the better. Let's just say it involves lots of kids :S . And not forgetting those troublesome form-filling and scholarship enquiry sessions, plus a few interviews I went to which I thought I had absolutely no hope of getting, including one in a pretty deserted area one hour from Ipoh. I mostly just took some naps and watched movies/TV shows in between, not putting much though into what I wanted to do and where I wanted to go.

PART 2:
Then one day in May, I got a, erm, confirmation that I was selected for a certain convertible loan scheme in that deserted place in Perak I told you about earlier. Suddenly there was a sense of direction, and for the first time in months I actually could look forward to something. Of course, there were some tidbits on the way to 12th July, like failing my driving test, getting my driver's license on another attempt, losing one of my teeth, etc, but 12th July came indeed and was officially day 1 of 2008 Part 2. What happened after that date was nothing less than life changing, and infinitely memorable. The rest, as people often say, is history. It was a period of firsts: First time washing plates and spoons in a toilet (you get the picture :D), first time accidentally falling asleep on more than at least 5 other people's rooms in a week, first time waking up beyond 2pm, first time going on a trip with 19 others, and so on...

I guess I left out a little part of the year, which was the period between the end of the semester and 31st December, but I honestly felt like the year ended with my semester. Not for any particular reason, but I just feel that way. And I suspect the new year feeling will only came when I return to campus. Which technically makes this semester break the... I don't know.

But, in keeping with the calendar year, I'll say adios 2008, and bring on 2009! :D

p.s Wow, long post.

New Year resolution

I hereby declare that my New Year resolution this year is to........ not have any New Year resolutions. No hopes, no aspirations, no nothing. At least then I can say to others at the end of the year:
Hey, I didn't fail any New Year resolutions this year, you know?
:D

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!